we're moving in less than three weeks!
but, wait!!! we haven't packed.


the worst part of moving is, naturally, the whole moving part. the entire process is just a labor (and this is coming from someone that hardly touched a box until it was ready to be lifted in our last move). the worst part may be the anticipation of putting things into boxes and the house being a wreck for a couple of weeks. ask anyone that knows a little about me and they will tell you i am not a big fan of messes. the anticipation of putting things in boxes combined with the thought of a two to three week mess may in fact be part of my headache today. i woke up and realized today was august 1st. our moving day is august 19. yikes!!! not one box is ready to go. i think i am even more anxious because my role in the move will be considerably larger this go-round. by move time last year, i was already in huntsville and sarah and marie did all the packing. this time, sarah might as well be in huntsville for as much as she has on her plate, and so i feel like it's my time to step up.

but step up how? i don't know how to do this. as many times as i have moved, i don't know if i've ever really packed. someone has always packed for me. that doesn't seem fair, but it's true. it's all about that first box i think. like conquering any fear, it's that first step that you have to take before you can move past it. getting hit by a baseball in the batter's box. the first rollercoaster with a loop. a first kiss. long division. eating tomatoes. it's all about that first step. you take it, you know you can do it. and so you do it. and so it's all about that first box. there are boxes behind me right now as i type. i could take one of the books off the desk and put it in a box.

but what would sarah say? that might be the wrong box. i might do it wrong. stack it wrong. that might be the one book that's supposed to go on top. or not in at all. maybe it's not our book. i could pack up something else. yeah, something else. like hannah's toys that are constantly making such a "mess" of the place. but we might not be packing that toy. or at least, not in this box. what do i do? i will wait. yeah, i will wait. for instruction. that will be good. for me. for now. it's only august 1st. we have three weeks. who needs to start now?

i think i'll go play ncaa.