"the people's revolution is gonna be a podcast." - Nofx


i was encountered by a friend who is going through a difficult and disconcerting situation earlier this week. the situation calls into question their beliefs, morals, convictions, and integrity. standing behind their beliefs, morals, convictions, and integrity, if the worst case scenario were to play out, would not come cheap. the dilemma includes choices that could and would affect their family's financial comfort, home, and spiritual headquarters. i pray that the worst case scenario might not play out. i pray that ignorance, in this circumstance, is defeated at the hands of enlightenment. i pray that my friend is not put in a position that would ask them to take a measured and calculated leap away from their current comfort zone. i pray that all their hard work to reach this comfort is not lost on a group of people that do not understand the gospel as it is intended. i pray, and i wonder...

i don't wonder the cliche' "what would jesus do", because that answer is easy. of course jesus would do the right thing. stand up for what he believes. take the ignorant to task. but i am not jesus. a far cry from it am i. i fully believe that jesus, god himself, has had a significant hand in helping me build the house of cards that is my life, but i also know that i am significantly more likely to knock the tower down than He is. a shortsighted decision here. a temptation not resisted there. and there it goes. a beautiful structure that was built with the help of The Man comes crashing down in a pile of regret, "why's", and "how did this happen to me's".

there's will come a point in all of our lives, maybe more than one if we are unlucky, where we will face a crossroad. and the choice of which way to turn will always be simple, but it will never be easy. i fear for my friend that may be coming to one, and i fear for myself because i am not 100 percent certain i would be able to follow my own advice...

...so what does this mean? any time i start to question my own advice, it usually means i am heading for a crossroad of my own. another fucking crossroad. but wisdom always (not usually) comes with understanding, and i understand that things are different now.

Which way will you go, Kevin?

a) left
b) right
c) straight ahead
d) turn tail and run...

how about, e) i'll just sit down right here and think about it for a while. ?