new year, new layout


if you are a regular visitor to this page, you've already noticed one big difference brought upon with the new year. that's right! the new layout. i think i am liking it more and more. i find myself clicking on the page just to check out the colors. i'll probably try fiddling around (pictures, links, more cursing) with posts from time to time this year to make it a more attractive visit. what can i say? as hannah gets older, she needs her stimulations to be more advanced. i am growing with her. i am not a "gadget" kind of guy. but by the time she gets old enough to read and understand my musings, she is going to think of this page in the same way i think of typewriters. very old. very boring. where are the lights? the bling? the techno-savvy elements that all the "kids" are into these days (these days probably being around the year 2015 when i am sure she will asking for one of those cool levitating skateboards from back to the future 2 for christmas). it's funny how "old school" and out of touch i am already afraid of becoming. i was afraid to hook up my computer that sarah got me for christmas because i didn't want to fuck it up. ipods? too much work. i'll stick to cd's. gps units? if it ain't on yahoo maps, i don't need to go there. those of you that know me well already know how big of a leap it is for me to carry my cell phone with me and answer it (from time to time). so, now that i think about it, brightening up the page every once and again will end up being a shallow effort that hannah ends up making fun of me for. that's ok. i know i'll at least have one thing. i'll be the only dad in her class that throws around the word "fuck" at the dinner table like it's going out of style. gratuitous cursing will never be "uncool", right? what do you mean it already is?

you don't know shit.

and now, on to a few belated new year's resolutions:

1) don't get fat. this is my number one every year, and up 'til now, i've been blessed in that i really don't have to try. i've got a pretty good metabolism working for me. i work out three times a week. i play a sport (softball, basketball, and now flag football) year-round. i never eat more than twice a day. twice a year it seems i catch some sort of vomit-inducing stomach virus where i lose ten pounds in eight hours. those are the positives. the negatives? my diet sucks. way too much fast food. way too much of something called trans-fat. don't even know what the hell that is. don't want to know. i just know it's bad. sooner than later, the diet thing is going to catch up with me. i can't make fat jokes if i, too, am fat. most of my "make sarah's eyes roll material" will be lost if i can't make fat jokes. so, again, number one is don't get fat.

2) don't die. let's not even wonder how this might affect the people around me. let's just focus on me. i've written about my deathdreams. best line i heard all year was from brand new. "i'm not scared of death. i'm a little bit scared of what comes after." i concur. i kind of "die" every night when i fall asleep. then i wake up, though. my mind is not at peace yet with the not waking up part. should be, but isn't. just being honest. so, right behind don't get fat is don't die.

3) be a better husband and father. i did ok with both of these last year. could be better. want to be better. don't let this being third on the list fool you. it's a really close third. you don't understand how much i don't want to be fat and die.

4) make you smile. whoever you are, if you are around me, i want to be a bright spot on your day and not a dark one.

5) decide on what i am going to do to with the whole church thing. am i going to commit or not? this definitely goes back to the heart vs. brain battle from the last post.

6) try and write more. writing makes me happy. i slacked off a little towards the end of the year. i should try harder.

7) buy good music. at least 25 purchases for the year. do not be "that guy" that resigns himself to the records he has in his collection already. keep buying new music. (soon to be bought: from 2006 - the format and the decemberists...2007 - the shins and fall out boy)

8) go back to an alabama football game. home schedule this year is too good not to.

9) keep bad mouthing alabama basketball. you lose to arkansas by 27 points, you deserve it.

10) fool myself into thinking the braves will be back in post-season this year in order to enjoy baseball.

11) go back to a falcons game. bobby petrino...meet michael vick. love him. use him. he is the most wonderful toy you will ever be able to play with.

12) take a vacation.

13) see lebron. and steve nash.

i think that's a pretty good start considering i had no idea what i was going to talk about when i started. to all of you that think new year's resolutions are pointless. get over yourself and make some. stick to it. feeling of accomplishment = good. apathy = bad.

here's wishing you all a healthy and hope-filled 2007.