miserable and loving it...


you know the miserable i am talking about. the miserable you anticipate. the miserable i have been looking forward to for weeks now. the miserable that makes you get that second helping that's just as big as, if not bigger than, the first because you've got to feel it. it has been a good five hours now since i have eaten anything. i am still full. that's good miserable...

for all intents and purposes, thanksgiving is over. i expected a lot, and it almost lived up to those lofty expectations. the dressing was perfect. the sweet potatoes with marshmellows (i was lucky!!!) were divine. the coca-cola salad just as good as always. the company was great. i talked more this year. it felt good. there was a dick there today. i watched him and i wondered if people thought i had been a dick in year's past, just sitting and eating and only really talking to sarah. i hope not. maybe i was better than that. i was this year. not just for the sake of it, though. because i really enjoyed myself. michael vick came through. sat through an audio-challenged war of the worlds, but it was pretty good and exciting. and you know what? it didn't go by too fast. i mean, it went by faster than i wished, but i was able to savor the day more than i thought i would. the time didn't fly, and i am thankful for that.

depending on which mall you're going to, christmastime officially opens in around three hours. wow. i still suggest that you sleep in. i am going to. but some deals are just too good, right? just too good? no, they aren't. you are still buying something so incredibly marked up that they will still make plenty of money even if it's half off(!!!). sleep late. "the deals" will be there when you wake up.

christmastime approaches me this year like "the nothing" did atreyu in the neverending story. i can feel it coming. i can see it coming. this big, commercial, artificially religious, fake, obligated blob of bullshit coming destroying everything in sight. atreyu couldn't stop "the nothing" and i can't stop "christmastime", but "the nothing" didn't destroy the universe. it just blew everything up so that it could start from scratch again.

start with something unique. and innocent. and exciting...