happy index
(part the last one)


the kohi will close for good (for now) at a strong:

9

the ugly:

n/a

the bad:

another somewhat disappointing run. ran/walked over five miles, but the walking part makes me want to punch a brick wall. what is wrong with me? is it just the weather, or is it all mental now?

the good:

burned 611 calories in spite of myself on the run.

got to use my forerunner gps watch for the first time. i haven't even scratched the surface of everything it can do, but it was pretty awesome getting to run and not hold my phone the whole time.

brought home a bike from amy's place so that i could ride with hannah this summer.

picked up the girls from daycare and drove downtown to surprise mommy and have dinner "in the city". the girls were very pleasant and we were able to use a groupon at surin. we all enjoyed ourselves. the sushi was quite excellent.

came home and rode bikes for the first time with my first baby girl. i can be an ass and really hard on hannah. she's proven that she's worth high expectations, but sometimes i can take those too far. since she took off on her bike, i've given her a hard time every time she has backslid a little, and that is totally unfair. even so, she was totally stoked to ride with me tonight and she stayed on her bike until the fireflies came out...

watched hannah catch fireflies in the backyard. caroline was super-tickled watching her sister and it was really a beautiful scene in our backyard. this time last year, hannah would have totally freaked out at the thought of catching bugs, but she was totally into it tonight.

commentary:

i'll have a kohi post-mortem sometime later this month (maybe). i don't know if i accomplished what i wanted to with the experiment. i don't know that i became a happier person over the last 29 days. i do know that i found myself, at the end of each of those days, looking for the good in them. that, in and of itself, is a discipline that i hope i can continue even if i am not sitting down with a physical inventory and rundown every night.

another nugget of wisdom came from the old turtle in kung fu panda last night. he told his apprentice that there is a saying...

"yesterday is history. tomorrow is a mystery. today is a gift. that is why they call it the present."

i want to resemble this. why the fuck do i spend so much of my time worrying about what kind of cancer i am going to have next or when i am going to die? sure, i am scared, and that's likely never going to change. only one day out of many, many days that i hope to have left will that happen. i need to let go and live with the gifts of my todays. my wife. my children. my friends. sustaining all of those by maintaining and excelling in some form of occupation. loving and loathing alabama football and the braves. knowing more than "you" about whatever sport we're talking about. that's all there really is, right?

so long, kohi. you served me well.